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Favorites :: Spring

This spring has felt strange to me. I think that for some women, the female-specific aspects of our lives are something that we downplay. When we’re on our periods, we refuse to admit that we’re moodier and weaker than normal. When we’re pregnant, we can get uncomfortable being shown special treatment or at the mention of “pregnancy brain.” I can feel myself resisting the effects of pregnancy on my life—exhaustion, aches and pains, nightmares—and I try to pretend that everything is normal and I’m my normal self.

But one of the most significant changes that takes place for me during pregnancy is a kind of internalization that happens. I feel myself drawing inward, getting even more introspective and independent—even isolated. It is especially strange for Logan—with whom I’m usually so open and connected—to feel me pulling away. Like a mama bear entering her winter cave during pregnancy, I feel reclusive, intent on spending all of my available energy and thoughts on caring for this baby and readying myself for her arrival.

My ramblings don’t really have a point, but I just wanted to share a little bit of what I’ve been feeling this spring and what it’s been like to carry this baby. It’s such a strange feeling, but also so instinctive and hard to resist. Is anyone else like this when pregnant? Just me? :)

In other news, here are some of the delightful and interesting links I’ve found recently ::

Happy Spring, my friends. xoxo

(Gorgeous photo by Jakob Owens)


Posted by Aanna on Wednesday, April 5th, 2017


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