Extra Virgin :: What if I don't desire intimacy with God?
As I mentioned earlier, I’m going to expand the conversation on sexuality here at Extra Virgin. Sex within marriage has the potential to produce beautiful intimacy between you and your husband, but this is only one of many ways that we can experience intimacy. It’s possible to experience deeply fulfilling intimacy with a friend or other believers in the Church. And all of this points to the place where intimacy can be the most satisfying, the most true, the most real—to intimacy with God himself.
In a short article about intimacy with God, Juli Slattery says that the first step should be to desire to have intimacy with God. That may seem obvious, but I think she makes a good point ::
It’s one thing to talk to your friends about wanting to know God, but how desperately do you want it? Is “intimacy with God” one of 20 other things on your goals for this year? Those who know the Lord have a sense of desperation for fellowship with him. He has become their daily bread. He is not A priority; he is THE priority. “One thing I have asked of the LORD, this only do I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze on the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple,” David wrote in Psalm 27:4. Paul stated his priority by saying everything in [his] life [was] rubbish compared to knowing Jesus.
I couldn’t agree more. In order for any kind of sincere intimacy to take place, there must be desire. But what if you don’t desire intimacy with God? What if you can go days at a time without even thinking about him, much less talking to him? What if he’s just one of many things that you desire, so that you often find yourself prioritizing family or work or pleasure or sleep above God?
Two of my mentors, Rob and Shannon Maupin, recommend a simple and extremely powerful prayer for times like these. They say that if you don’t want God, then pray, “Lord, please change my want-er.”
The truth is that we can’t do anything good without the help of God, so we must humbly rely upon God even to change our hearts. I challenge you to start praying this prayer as often as you can, trusting that God will do the hard work of changing your heart so that you can do the easy work of following your heart. Once your heart points towards God, you will work relentlessly and joyfully toward intimacy with Him.
“You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart.” Jeremiah 29:13
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